Welcome to my Life After Dating a Psycho.
About This Blog: This website is the product of my journey from a victim of teenage relationship violence to a survivor. It is full of rambling thoughts, poems, stories, memories and commentary about the world around me. It includes things I have found to be helpful through my journey: information, definitions, statistics, hotlines, articles, and more. It covers topics ranging from how to see abuse as abuse and not as love; how to get your life back after breaking up, how to get through depression and PTSD, and how to love someone else again and open back up after surviving a trauma.
Although this blog is lighthearted in appearance, dating an actual psychopath is no laughing matter. I had the unfortunate pleasure of dating a (clinically certified) psychopath when I was fifteen years old. It was my first relationship, and it F*@#ed up my entire life. Thinking back to the situation–even now as I’m sitting here, safe–I still feel the impossibility of getting away from him. I’m still not quite sure how I survived.
I thank God every day that I have my life. Through my time as a victim, I became a shell of a person: empty, isolated and alone. I thought that what I was going through was something no one had ever experienced and no one could ever understand. I was shocked to learn, after the fact, that I was ONE out of THREE teenagers that experience some type of abusive situation.
I know what it’s like to feel like you are all alone. I know how long a night can get. I know how different someone’s internal life can be from the one everyone sees on the outside. I know what it feels like to wish you could just disappear from the world. But I always know what it is like to survive. To succeed despite it all and to refuse to give up. To find a way back to life and to feel happiness again.
I created Life After Dating a Psycho to help connect victims and survivors and to let people who are struggling know that they are not alone. Things can get better, so please don’t give up.
I am a writer. A multi-sport athlete. A graduate student! A model. A Love Is Not Abuse Coalition Leader for the state of Florida. A poet. An activist. A runner. A volunteer. A tomboy. An artist. I become obsessed with things I am passionate about, a list that is always growing. I spend 90% of my life outside of my comfort zone. I love the color blue. Things that are bright yellow. Ladybugs. Anything to do with soccer. I make a choice every day to be happy. Of course there are the days I can’t help thinking that I will never be ok again, but I refuse to be a victim for my whole life. So, even if all I can do today is to keep on writing, hopefully it will help to break the silence of adolescent and young-adult relationship violence, one voice at a time.
Please feel free to email me directly at firstname.lastname@example.org. I am not a doctor or a psychologist but I will always listen, and I would love to hear from you. If you are interested in using any of the images that appear on this site, please also contact me.
Peace and Love ♥